Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I'm not gonna rest

That line just played in a song I'm listening to and reminded me of how I live my life. This past week I have just been passing out in the middle of the day. Other than being sick, I think it's my body telling me to take a chill pill and slow down. I fill my time with people. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but I'm beginning to enjoy my own personal down time. I like to have time to wind-down and spend useless time exploring random stuff on the internet (that's my way of not admitting to too much facebook).

It's been awhile since I sat down to write/type this thing. I took my YL kids to summer camp at Frontier Ranch in Buena Vista, Colorado! It was one of the most fun weeks of my life! We got to rappel, do a ropes course, go on an amazing swing, ride horses! I got to spend some much needed time away from my daily schedule. It's amazing the things you think about when you aren't continuously running on your mind-numbing schedule. I had some great time with Jesus and getting to know my girls even deeper and just learning a lot. I see Jesus in a much more realistic, almost tangible way now. He's so real. It's awesome. I feel like I gained some independence and confidence with being alone, which I also love. It's nice to get to just talk about your crap and hear about other people's and realize we're all in this together. It's a cheesy, yet uniting feeling.

Work has been interesting. Along with my 2 boys, I now am doing the summer camp at S.E.E.K. on Mon and Wed. It's pretty chaotic to say the least. It's challenging to get to know a whole classroom of kids while also trying to get to know a new kiddo more in depth in a very noisy, constantly moving environment. I'm definitely learning a lot at least. I'm no longer positive that my career will be in this area. I've been pretty disheartened lately by some kiddos and I just don't know if this is the place for me. Luckily I don't need to make that decision too soon. Only by the end of next Fall when I send out grad school applications. GAH.

That is the next big thing. The GRE. Ew. It's nearly impossible to get into study mode in the summer. However, when I was studying yesterday, I actually did find the material semi-interesting....which is kind of sad, but whateve. I'm comfortable in my nerdiness. Anyway, I'll put up some pictures from camp when I get the energy/time/will power to upload my pictures. Until then, I'm going to finish reading the 4th Twilight book: Breaking Dawn. I hate that I ever even read the 1st one...but they are just so dang good.

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